When I first started doing this blog (yes, not too long ago) I told myself that I would blog every day no matter what in order to TRY and make myself feel better. Well, clearly that didn't last long.
In April of last year, I picked up my life and moved to a new city in a new province where I knew no one, except for the man that I thought I was going to be with forever....6 short weeks later my world came crashing down when ended the relationship. You would think that in nine months one would be over something like that or at least on the road to recovery. Sadly, I am not. I thought I was but sometime in December it all came crashing down and I feel as if it happened yesterday. Neither of us fought to keep our relationship because our relationship consisted of fighting for the most part (we went from long distance to living with his parents...not so smart) He and I were friends for almost 13 years and now nothing. we don't talk we don't text we don't email. nothing.
I finally talked to my mom about it and we're going to look into getting some counseling because I think i really need it at this point. I'm so tired of crying over someone who obviously never cared about me. Well I shouldn't say that. I know he cared about me I guess just not enough. Either way I know I need help dealing with this.
I'm home from work sick today because for the past week I've had this horrible pit in my stomach because I cant stop thinking about him.
New year, New memories. Time to forget the old?
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Good luck with the counselling, I hope it helps. A friend of mine went through a similar situation and she founf counselling invaluable. I hope things get better for you soon
ReplyDeleteaw thanks. i'm at the point where i'm willing to try anything right now. i still love him and having him not talk to me kills. so i need to know how to get over it.
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